Hai its me!! I'm BACK!!!
Wow Havent blog for sometimes or exactly haven't post some of the blogs I had been writing...
Readers!! Let me ask you something...
Have you ever felt empty. . . So empty that even though many was around you, you just seems to be not in the mood of doing things properly.. sort of losing the idea of who you are??
Well Thats exactly the thing I felt the last few weeks, there was some kind of weird feeling binding me up into the center of a pandemonium, paralyzing me from what I should do and think. Bad influence?? Maybe, possibly and yet it reminds me of the title of my mentor's blog, Ken's blog, which is "WE ARE OUR BIGGEST ENEMY". So was it me being stupid or was is the influence and the atmosphere? Well one way or another I don't give a damm about it. Whats done is done...
I honestly will admit that whatever I did the last few weeks, was not maximized and was not enough for me. What people think about it matters not, because I know myself better than anyone and I know its below my standards. I could have done much better... Again one of my principle saved me, which is "No Fear, NO REGRET" and I shall just let those feelings away...
BUT HEYYYYY!!!
Have you ever experience a feeling that suddenly all the things that has happened to you, just suddenly appear in front of you as if you're watching all of them all by yourself??? Didn't happen often but happened to me tonight (still like 22.00 something when I wrote this).
All of the sudden I finally realize that I can be much better and if better is possible, good may not seems enough for me. . .
How does it happen? Is it because all the holiday, the conversations, the debates, the movies, the relationship, the friendship, the fun, the togetherness, the problems, the misery, the articles, the task or thing I've had all along last week till today that brings me Here and Now??
I bet each and every single thing happened have its own parts. Today I didn't feel so good about something, I guess some things just didn't work out and the Question is... "SO WHAT???!!" (I suddenly remember this words saved me so many times).
What doesn't KILL me Makes Me STRONGER and Even STRONGER . . .
Whatever happened back then... whatever it is... as long as I'm Alive.. I SURVIVED it. So from this point on, I guess I'll just Make MORE Things Happen!!!
It feels like there is a voice telling me to "RAISE AND TO RAISE MY STANDARDS!" (Always reminds me of what Ernest told us every camp) and Now... I heard the voice...
A voice heard in the distance that gives me a Hint. . . and Now its feels like I was hearing my own voice... I AM The VOICE!!!
It feels like... As if there are more and more Lights shining inside me, filling each and every part of me with more lights... As long as its for better. . . let me the Light. . . Let me be the instrument that Lightens Up Everything else!!!
Wow Havent blog for sometimes or exactly haven't post some of the blogs I had been writing...
Readers!! Let me ask you something...
Have you ever felt empty. . . So empty that even though many was around you, you just seems to be not in the mood of doing things properly.. sort of losing the idea of who you are??
Well Thats exactly the thing I felt the last few weeks, there was some kind of weird feeling binding me up into the center of a pandemonium, paralyzing me from what I should do and think. Bad influence?? Maybe, possibly and yet it reminds me of the title of my mentor's blog, Ken's blog, which is "WE ARE OUR BIGGEST ENEMY". So was it me being stupid or was is the influence and the atmosphere? Well one way or another I don't give a damm about it. Whats done is done...
I honestly will admit that whatever I did the last few weeks, was not maximized and was not enough for me. What people think about it matters not, because I know myself better than anyone and I know its below my standards. I could have done much better... Again one of my principle saved me, which is "No Fear, NO REGRET" and I shall just let those feelings away...
BUT HEYYYYY!!!
Have you ever experience a feeling that suddenly all the things that has happened to you, just suddenly appear in front of you as if you're watching all of them all by yourself??? Didn't happen often but happened to me tonight (still like 22.00 something when I wrote this).
All of the sudden I finally realize that I can be much better and if better is possible, good may not seems enough for me. . .
How does it happen? Is it because all the holiday, the conversations, the debates, the movies, the relationship, the friendship, the fun, the togetherness, the problems, the misery, the articles, the task or thing I've had all along last week till today that brings me Here and Now??
I bet each and every single thing happened have its own parts. Today I didn't feel so good about something, I guess some things just didn't work out and the Question is... "SO WHAT???!!" (I suddenly remember this words saved me so many times).
What doesn't KILL me Makes Me STRONGER and Even STRONGER . . .
Whatever happened back then... whatever it is... as long as I'm Alive.. I SURVIVED it. So from this point on, I guess I'll just Make MORE Things Happen!!!
It feels like there is a voice telling me to "RAISE AND TO RAISE MY STANDARDS!" (Always reminds me of what Ernest told us every camp) and Now... I heard the voice...
A voice heard in the distance that gives me a Hint. . . and Now its feels like I was hearing my own voice... I AM The VOICE!!!
It feels like... As if there are more and more Lights shining inside me, filling each and every part of me with more lights... As long as its for better. . . let me the Light. . . Let me be the instrument that Lightens Up Everything else!!!
Let's SHINE
Recca L.
@roninsleader
