I heard the Voice!! Now Lets Shine!!!

Hai its me!! I'm BACK!!!
Wow Havent blog for sometimes or exactly haven't post some of the blogs I had been writing...

Readers!! Let me ask you something...

Have you ever felt empty. . . So empty that even though many was around you, you just seems to be not in the mood of doing things properly.. sort of losing the idea of who you are??



Well Thats exactly the thing I felt the last few weeks, there was some kind of weird feeling binding me up into the center of a pandemonium, paralyzing me from what I should do and think. Bad influence?? Maybe, possibly and yet it reminds me of the title of my mentor's blog, Ken's blog, which is "WE ARE OUR BIGGEST ENEMY". So was it me being stupid or was is the influence and the atmosphere? Well one way or another I don't give a damm about it. Whats done is done...

I honestly will admit that whatever I did the last few weeks, was not maximized and was not enough for me. What people think about it matters not, because I know myself better than anyone and I know its below my standards. I could have done much better... Again one of my principle saved me, which is "No Fear, NO REGRET" and I shall just let those feelings away...

BUT HEYYYYY!!!
Have you ever experience a feeling that suddenly all the things that has happened to you, just suddenly appear in front of you as if you're watching all of them all by yourself??? Didn't happen often but happened to me tonight (still like 22.00 something when I wrote this).

All of the sudden I finally realize that I can be much better and if better is possible, good may not seems enough for me. . .
How does it happen? Is it because all the holiday, the conversations, the debates, the movies, the relationship, the friendship, the fun, the togetherness, the problems, the misery, the articles, the task or thing I've had all along last week till today that brings me Here and Now??

I bet each and every single thing happened have its own parts. Today I didn't feel so good about something, I guess some things just didn't work out and the Question is... "SO WHAT???!!" (I suddenly remember this words saved me so many times).

What doesn't KILL me Makes Me STRONGER and Even STRONGER . . .

Whatever happened back then... whatever it is... as long as I'm Alive.. I SURVIVED it. So from this point on, I guess I'll just Make MORE Things Happen!!!
It feels like there is a voice telling me to "RAISE AND TO RAISE MY STANDARDS!" (Always reminds me of what Ernest told us every camp) and Now... I heard the voice...
A voice heard in the distance that gives me a Hint. . . and Now its feels like I was hearing my own voice... I AM The VOICE!!!

It feels like... As if there are more and more Lights shining inside me, filling each and every part of me with more lights... As long as its for better. . . let me the Light. . . Let me be the instrument that Lightens Up Everything else!!!

Let's SHINE

Recca L.

@roninsleader

Once in A Lifetime7/8/9

Today is 7th August 2009 or we can say 07/08/09, well probably nothing that important for most people. Well whatever happens in our life means nothing until we ourselves give a meaning into it. If you rethink about today you might realize that once in a life time everything is sequenced from 1 to 9, which is at 12:34:56 7/8/9

So I guess this year 2009 WILL be the BEGINNING of Greater Years

and Its my Birthdayhahaha

...and so as The Wind blows...

Cya @ The Top!!!

Recca L.

@roninsleader

Beauty is NOTHING without Brain

Beauty Without Brain

Today I'm just going to show you a funny video that teach us that.......
Beauty is NOTHING without Brain hehe

so Check This Video first then shall I explain what I mean ^^

Check This Out!!!

In short, that short movie was showing us about a girl (which is classified as beauty), who ordered food in a library and when the librarian tell her that it's library, she keep on ordering the food by whispering, which indirectly shows that she doesn't really know what to do in a library hahaha. Well for boys/guys don't be so happy, bcoz it's nothing really about girls and yet it for both male and females.

This short movie reminds me that Beauty is not only outside, its inside as well. I mean like an old saying say 'don't judge a book, from its cover', don't judge someone from the look, well if you does in terms of love I'll call it "crush", signs of crush at times you wanted to be with that person want to feel what's its like and stuffs like that and in the end it nothing more that "curiosity". might be

Let me give you something I learned the last few years, yet I learned so much about relationship, why because all around me I saw people suffering from it so I guess it might be interesting to learn and would be nice if say I can figure something out to help them and in fact I helped some to free their mind, even just a bit. Of course, I can't mention it, since they got my words and REAL man never goes back on his words.

Well another truth about me, ever since I broke up with my ex, I was single for about 3years now and mate I'm still ALIVE!!!

YES Mate!!! I'm freaking alive!!! "SO WHAT???" ask me that. The "SO WHAT" here is that some people just can't live a month or worse couples of weeks or even worse couples of day without girlfriend or boyfriend. WOWW Fabulous Lets give a "GO TO HELL" clap to this people. They are definitely the people I'll categorize as "People I don't get along with". I disrespect them, I disgrace them and I'm annoyed for even knowing that such "creature" exist.

I mean if you can't respect yourself, how the hell are you expecting me or other people to respect you?? You don't deserve that and please mate, don't ask for something you don't deserve coz you'll lose it anyway. Time, take a not about this, time will prove and time will reveal, who you really are. You might look handsome/pretty/sexy/hot or whatever and so what? It's just how you looked, it's like covering yourself with mask to cover you disgusting/evil/dark/bastard side. If some people suddenly want to stop reading, I guess my writing has somehow reminds them of something. Yet I challenge you to keep on reading guys, I can't promise you anything, but I might free your mind even for just a bit.

Hmm to explain this I'll simply use a word called "charm", which will leads us to another word called "charming". Charming and charm are words that are often used to describe enchantment, attractiveness, appealing, inviting and any others which trigger other's desire and seems like hypnotized everyone and yet sorry to say only few have those charm, it's something rare you can't find everyday even every year, it's just,,, too rare and too precious. However many "seems" to have such charm, ehhhh wait why did I put quotation mark on the word 'seems', well its simply because many people "only" seems to have one, which will fade in time. Well you can't really lose you touch, unless you never have one.

Let me tell you a bit about these "creatures I don't get along with", I often called them "The Pretenders". This pretenders often broke their promises, pretends that they are good, pretends that the love people and when its time they'll just leave you and look for another one. At times there are possibilities that they'll come back and begging for mercy saying every single sweet word for your forgiveness and yet they'll hurt you over and over again. How did I know that?? Coz I do know some of these "creature" and sorry to say they deserve No Mercy, No Respect, No Love, they deserve... NOTHING. I mean come on mate. You expect something you don't deserve? Well its up to you, but you'll lose it anyway. Like I said before the keyword here is "TIME" and Yes Time will prove it to you.

Furthermore I will tell you and interesting fact, which experiences told me about these creatures. These creatures I called "The Pretenders", most of them are standing upon something called "Truth behind Lies" oh yeah I interviewed some of these people, even though we're not getting along. One of them said that it simply means behind all their lies, there is a truth a truth called by most of them "Temptation". So what is this temptation about?? Its' about lying about love, It's about making people believe that we love them and leave them, when we found a better one. I can only describe this as "NONSENSE" so you just hurt others, without thinking about them and each time I asked one of them most of them leads to "That's Live" and yet I say "No That NOT Live, that JUST YOU and YOUR LIVE". I always believe that don't do things, you don't want others to do to you. Thats why I can't play with love, coz I don't want anybody to do the same thing to me.

Anyway this "Truth behind Lies" is NONSENSE. Let me tell you why there is no such thing as "Truth behind Lies". I always believe that one lie will lead to another lie, why is that so?? Because once you lied to someone, you'll have to make another lie to cover the lie you've made before and sooo you'll have to make another lie, which will later on become a "Chain of Lies", which is similar with the "Chain of Hatred" I hated. Therefore I conclude that there is no such thing as "Truth behind Lies", because behind a lie, there will be another lie and to the next lie, which is what I called never ending "Chain of Lies".

Few days ago one of my friends is somehow poisoned by this philosophy and here are a bit of our conversation.

X... says: why man marry bitches
X... says: coz man like it
Recca,, says: no
Recca,, says: why man marry bitches
Recca,, says: coz REAL man turn them into princess
And I'm sure mate you don't want to be with bitches, like woman don't want to be with bastards

Well My advice if you noticed some people like that around you, please avoid them and leave them immediately because those are the people with outer beauty, and yet nothing inside. A part of you might not be able to resist the temptation and yet that's only a part of you!!! In every single thing you do in life part of you will agree and some will not, you might hear the voices, imagine the future or even got a feeling and yet... If I may give you, say a piece of advice... Do what you have to do, or you might regret it your whole Life.

Things to remember...
-Beauty is NOTHING without Brain
-Don't judge a book, from its cover
-Don't judge someone from the look
-Time will expose everything
-You can't Really Lose Your Touch, Unless You Never have One
-People with only Outer beauty = NOTHING
-Do what you have to do, or you might regret it your whole Life.

"True Love is Like a Fairy Tale,
Countless Spoke of it...and Yet Only Few Witness It"
~Recca L S~

The Tale of My Heart

Today somehow I suddenly woke up early in the morning.
and just can't get some things out of my mind...
so I just write them down, coz I know I will be better.

I haven't wrote any poem for years.
and yet somehow I suddenly do... I called it...

'The Tale of My Heart'

its like a mixed up things I rearrange from my English assignments things x)

They said Nothing last Forever
Its Only in Fairy Tale
Yet Love is Like a Fever
Creating Its Own Tale

Countless spoke of Love
Saying Words by Words
and Truth Talks to Me
Expecting More Than Words

I forgot My Past
That did Not Last
Keep on Walking
All The Way Believing

My Head may Think
Listening to My Heart
My Eyes Can Wink
As I See through My Heart

That Even If The Sun Stop to Shine
and Everything Else can't be fine
Or Even The Moon Fell Down Tonight
I want You to Stay by My Side

Recca L. S.

Skate Toward Your Future

Skate Toward Your Future

and sooo ladies and gentleman, as the camp was over, in Indonesia (especially Jakarta), we always have a tradition of having a king of reunion/gathering to remind ourselves and our friends about the future ahead of us and so at 11 July 2009, we met again to celebrate and to make sure that its not only in the camp, but also after the camp.

This reunion is organized by Dion, Yolenta, Ira and Michelline, who became the contact person, whose job is to estimate the people coming and organize the activity. Well even though iits just for fun meeting, good things still must be planned. I also help them, but just helping 'a bit' hahaha

Check The Poster Out!!!

...and so as The Wind blows...

Cya @ The Top!!!

Recca L.

@roninsleader

SuperTeen June/July 2009

I'm finally BACK after 2 looong weeks

and this afternoon (the first day home), I dunno why, but I was sweating and so I finally began to ask myself this one question 'am I tired?' and after two long weeks I finally began to realize that I am.... 'a bit tired' wkwkwk

Anyway Lets begin with my journey...

SuperTeen Holiday Camp
*The Best Camp Ever
*The Coolest Camp Ever
*The Hottest Camp Ever
*The Greatest Camp Ever
*The Most Amazing Camp Ever
*The Most 'DAHSYAT' Camp Ever
*The Most Memorable Camp Ever
*The Life Changing Camp

and sooo many other title hahaha

Alrite at the 20th June, we got our briefing (the camp is at the 22nd) and I was supposed to be a Platoon Commander + Translator, along with Yonis, Dd and Alfons. How to choose Platoon Commander? Simple we did that by nomination hahaha... We selected our Platoon Member and others, then later on had some dinner with some of my friends. We're very excited about this camp ^^

22nd morning we're supposed to gather at 6 o'clock in the morning and some of us (including me) just seems to be too exited and I woke up sooo early about 3 or something and sms others half an hour afterwards, even Lindy replied 'Recca, Dion its still 4 o'clock in the morning...' and so when the replies came, I realize that so many others are also awake already.. was it the exitement? Well you'll NEVER eeee,,, eVer understand unless you joined the camp xp

Later when we arrived at the gathering spot, Lindy, Dion and some others thought that my grandpa is my dad hahaha, then we wait, wait and wait for the others do some headcounts and finally leave for Lembang!! We played some Uno, chit chat, sing songs, jokes around, some are gossiping around, some slept, some ate snack.... Well just so many things to do haha

and as we arrived in Lembang, Ken (my mentor, the co-trainer of SuperTeen) told me that I might have to be a full translator, since I was asked to go to Surabaya as well. Then we selected someone which is Richard to replace me and sooo here's the Platoon Commander's Dd, Alfons, Yonis and Richard. Of course some changes are done to balance the resources between each Platoon. I'll show u their photo later on....

I guess, this camp might actually be the camp with most casualties, i mean lindy got 'chicken pox/cacar' and went home, Alfons (one of the Platoon Commander) also went back on the fifth day, because of high fever. Then some resources like Hans, Edwina, Dion and some others including me also felt sick. I also got fever and can't join the last COE. I was also kinda forced to sleep for some time. However somehow i just need few hours to recover. Something I dislike here is that in the class, the speaker is facing the stage, so when I translate I sometime couldn't properly hear, what the trainer is saying ^^" I did some mistakes on the first day I think, but then I get used to it and its okay (even I can't listen properly, I think I'm getting more and more expert in SuperTeen lessons haha)

Another thing is that I think this camp is the camp, where I got so many nicknames starting from Anime-Looking, Japanese-Looking, Korean-Looking, cool, cute(???), mysterious man, jumper/teleporter (some campers say sometimes I just appear and disappear), even Jay Chou and Recca-chan wkwkwk... There might be some more but I don't know haha

Some interesting people... In this camp, I was close to a Platoon called Bakpao, whose Platoon Commander is Richard, which is supposed to be my Platoon haha and some people here are interesting. Bobby the first row, we lip sing some songs during break wkwkwk. Kris, who always called me brother haha, he's one of the most potential leader. Richard Vincent, a young man that will sure make a great priest and politican. The girl I would say have some kind of inner charm, I think she gained some fans after the camp haha Vonny and her friend, quiet troublesome on CoE, but experience said the most troublesome might improve a lot, if they choose so (I was troublesome too wkwkwk). From other Platoons too, Elsa and Indra the siblings, who came back from USA. The camp leaders, Callista and William. A girl named Michelline, who might make a good resource (according to some resources). Bakso King Dana and Ian, who are going to have 6 pack wkwk. Perry and Stedy, my best friends from different era that I trusted wholeheartedly and soo Many other campers I can't mention one by one...

Thanks to the friendship and togetherness of resources that I will always remember, Thanks to Siomay Platoon, who always give me a place to sit haha. Congrads for the 4 Platoon Commanders: Richard, Alfons, Dd and Yonis. The Old resources like Stevia, Michelle, Samantha, Edwina, Yosen, Dion, Lisa, Eric, Jean, Tare, Klaudia, Alex and Darwin that have been a great friend for me. Thank You for Tara for borrowing me the her scarf (helps my troat), Thanks to Yonis that made me dozens of Lo Huan Ko wkwk. Thanks to Alfons, Albert, Eric and Darwin for being a crazy and amazing roomate wkwk. Thanks to the New Resources Albert, Angelina, Jonathan, Yolenta, Andre, Moinca, Irene, Julia, Ariel, Aldo and Ira. Last but not least also the TDW staffs like Ka Lasri, Wenny, Ko Ryan, Edy, Herman and also Ci Mega and Ko Fred (my big brother and my mentor) . Sorry if I can't spend some quality time with you guys sorryy, but I'll improve and became even better next camp ^^

Here are some photos:

The Photo, when I was attacked by Laskar Girang wkwk


Yap Best Friends: Yonis, Recca (me) and Lisa ^^

The Spirit and Togetherness of Brotherhood, Sisterhood, Neighborhood and Robin Hood wkwk
Ariel, Angelina, Hans, Andre, Dd, Richard, Samantha, Ira n Recca

The Platoon Commanders!!! (Yosen replaced Alfons)
Yosen,Dd, Yonis and Richard
That's Ariel, Bobby, Esa, Me and Vonny
some of the people that are going to be great ^^

With Stevia The New Scholar ^^
also one of the BEST resource from Bandung

One of The Best Resource from Bandung,
the one who's going to own the Best French Restaurant there xp
With Tara... My good and caring friend
(who lend me her scarf ^^)
With 'Miss Culun' Ira wkwkwkw

With Yonis 'Girang Queen' wkwk

Jesslyn, the girl that seems to be able to read my mind.
such an interesting person, haven't meet any for years.
but i think we looked kinda weird in this photo haha
With My Mentor Ko Fred hwhw


The Secret Service Agent Jonathan

Giving Signatures
Okay that was Lembang ^^

as the campers and the trainers went away to Jakarta, we had our dinner and finally back to the hotel. During the dinner a message excites me, but I won't tell yaa hahaha.. We also had karaoke but i can't sing, gotta save my voice. The we went back to the hotel have some sharing session.
I was supposed to go back too, since there is smartkid , but since I was going to Surabaya I was asked to rest. We have some chit chat, sharing session, evaluation session and of course jokes session ahahaha... well honestly i feel something weird around, but anyway the story must goes on xp

Next day I woke up 6 o'clock my leg cramp ,, gotta take a walk and in one intersection suddenly a staff appeared right in front of me, i almost jumped into him, but my reflex works at the right time haha. Then I walk for few minutes, before I finally went back to my room and continue my sleep. Then we leave for CiWalk for few hours, shopping, lunch, looking for souvenirs and things like that, but I just can't find anything I like so I just had Batagor for my lunch (Everytime I went to bandung MUST eat haha) then I bought some brownies for my parents and after having fun on the 7th day, we finally went back to Jakarta. I fell asleep on the journey, but tiredness hasn't caught me yet ^^

As the time goes by we finally arrived in CL or what people call Ciputra, There was smartkid seminar there and we visit them and also the Trainers (Ernest, Ken, Peter, etc). I was supposed to translate and yet since I'm leaving to Surabaya the next day, I was told to rest. One stupid things here is that our friend 'Miss Culun Ira' tried to injured herself by putting hansaplast on a fresh wound without cleaning it up first sooo culun, but we stopped her in time. We also took some photo (AGAIN)

Furthermore I went back with Ka Wenny (same route home) and I start to pack for the next dayyyy.I woke up early in the morning go online for a while... Missing SuperTeen badly and at noon, I went to the airport, meet up with Ken and Jean then prepare ou ludgage. While we are waiting for our flight, Ken give me a test from the book called 'The 5 Language of Love' and my result shows very high results on 'Quality Time' and 'Personal Touch' I actually don't really understand about that, well maybe I should read that book sometime ^^

As we arrived in Surabaya I felt as if I'm a tour guide haha, calling the person that is supposed to pick us up etc. Then we were brought to meet Pak Herlambang in Tunjungan Plaza or something to had dinner, before we went to Tretes where the camp takes place. We also met Irena, a resource and also founder of Youth Business Camp. I never met her personally before and well she seems quite expert in business, maybe I shall learn business from her. Then we had our dinner, Jean's lasagna took sooo long, dunno what they did with the lasagna haha. Then Ken went to starbucks to use internet connection, since he wish to update antivirus. Then I checked TP for a while with Jean, but didn't but anything in the end. It feels as if I'm in Jakarta, everything seems familiar hahaha. Then we finally head to Tretes. In short, we arrieved there check in and..... set the training room up. I learned just soo many things about setting up here and since it took quite a while I went to sleep at about 1 o'clock, but I was fine ^^

Early in the morning I woke up, took a bath and check the training room again, while waiting for the resources to come. Finally when the resources arrived, I met some old friends like Bobby, Buana, Olivia, Antoni, Antonio, Kezia, James, Lingga, Adriana, Katherine. Then I also meet new people such as Edo, Irena, Kenny, Patrick, Flo, Christine, Michael, Jordy, Ave etc. Some of them actually knew me from the past camp, so I'm a bit familiar with some of them ^^ something interesting that Irena reminds me is that it's interesting that I can get along well quite fast with them, even though even the old resources haven't meet me for such a long time. Interesting isn't it? haha.
During the briefing I was again nominated as Platoon Commander ==" but I have to refuse since I'm just helping here, have to let others to learn ^^ then it is decided the 3 Platoon Commanders: Bobby, Olive and Antoni, Camp Co: Irena and Buana.

One thing I learned here is to push my self and keep on improving in the worse situation. Since I have to translate with sore throat, which makes me optimize my breathing ability. I won't protest because Bobby was sick and Ko Fred aren't supposed to translate some lessons, so we simply need to rotate and yet James my roommate said that I cough during my sleep hahaha. We also have some karaoke on the last night, Bobby and I became the MC there...

Here are some photos:


The Karoke Time!! Even Ernest and Pak Tung were asked to sing ^^

another photo before we went back to The Training Room
One Word: FOCUS!!!
Peter's Style and I know 'You Can't See Me' xp


Hamster Face!! Look at Ernest a rare hamster face hahaha
Ernest with The Present
The Brotherhood and Sisterhood of Resources
Time to Celebrate ^^Mental Hospital Style wkwkwk



Old and New Resources
The Wanted Man hahaha (they both want to take picture so take together lhaa xp)Vero and Irena (old and new friends hehe)
Ernest said: 'This One Got Style' wkwkwk

After the Graduation we went to 'Ayam Sri' restaurant, they said it a very famous restaurant and really the presto chiken there tasted very good haha. The the resources went back to Surabaya by buss, while Ernest, Ken, Jean, Ko Fred, Pak Herlambang and me went back to Tretes Raya Hotel. The next day, Ernest, Ken and Ko Fred went to the airport early in the morning to catch their plane, while Jean, Pak Herlambang and me went later.

Pak Her had a meeting to attend and so Jean and Me went to Sutos (Surabaya Town Square) and meet up with some friends. Edo and Olivia came first then followed by Buana, Kezia, Flo and at last Nathalia. Here are some photos that we took

The Eight of Us

Recca, Edo, Olivia, Jean and Nathalia(feels like taking Wedding Picture wkwk)After the lunch (Edo treat us, thanks Edo ^^), Pak Herlambang and Pak Nardar pick us up at about 1 o'clock, then we drove Flo to her campus at UPH Surabaya and drove all the way to the airport. We say goodbye to Jean, who's going back to Singapore. Then Pak Her and Me check our tickets in. Then Pak Her went to meet someone and this is where the exitement comes. I went myself to the plane, (after wandering around a while) I was waiting for Pak Her and a stewardness saw me using handphone and told me to turn it off, even though I'm still replying sms ckckck...

Amazingly this flight is not delayed and suddenly a stewardess announced something like 'If Mr Herlambang is on board, please report to one of the stewarness immidiately. I was thinking whether i should call him, but then some stewardess are going around including the one who asked me to turn my phone off ==" and in the end... He didn't show up until the flight took off!!
In the end we finally met, when we arrived at Jakarta. He said that he almost missed the plane and is immediately ask to sit on an empty chair in front.

Pak Mus picked us up and drove me home, before they went somewhere else and in the car we cheers with some cola there. 'Jakarta Here We are!!'
I was soo tired at the following night so I went to bed early
Well Thats one of My Fantastic Journey!!!

Some Reflexion:
Sometimes there are times, when people missunderstood you for something you didn't meant to and yet I am mature enought to accept that I did a mistake and is ready for the punishments, which therefore let me to learn more, take the lesson and move forward. Like a saying that says 'No Matter How Good a Child is, The Parent will always find The Flaws' and yet I think its meant to push the children and let them grow. In the End, What doesn't Kill Me and Whatever I Survive, Makes Me Stronger and even Stronger ^^

One thing for sure... I will became one of The Greatest EnterTrainer The World have yet to seen, Count On Me!!!

Somethings I learned:
- Carry Ourselves Properly and Lead by Example
- Inspiration from a friend: It might be sucks to see how unfair people treat you, Conquer It!
- It Not about Where You are, Its Who You are That Makes a Difference
- What doesn't Kill Me and Whatever I Survive, Makes Me Stronger and even Stronger

...and so as The Wind blows...
Cya @ The Top!!!

Recca L.

@roninsleader